How does He woo?

For a long time, I was waiting for a Big God Moment - a sign so obviously from Him that I would experience it and be moved with such conviction that I would give Him my whole self and never look back. Well if it wasn’t obvious, that never happened. Around the time I started college in 2015, I had come to terms with the fact that maybe I would never have a huge moment - that He is present in the small things, and that was good! That was sustainable.

But in my heart I’ve always known there was more - that God wasn’t just present in those moments, but that those moments were created for me (to some extent). I’ve always been half in awe and half scared of the concept of God as my Lover, my woo-er. He has always been a friend, a father, a listener, a protector - but to be intimate in that way of love? To experience Him in the purest form of Eros? What would that do to me? How would I change if I fully embraced it?

In the same way I don’t think I’ll have a Big God Moment, I don’t think I’ll have a Big Conversion either. My faith journey is in the everyday decisions, the small reminders of His presence, His constant call for me despite my avoidance and laziness. It is nothing crazy. It’s something I take one day at a time, and usually fail at. But I think I’m more open to it now, especially to this intimacy with Him.

I’m beginning to try and understand songwriting more, and at least right now I think what I put out is definitely some kind of reflection of my current understanding. This song is a very small glimpse into the first steps of an intimate relationship - allowing myself to be woo-ed, and reminding myself of some real moments for me where I do believe it was God loving me through these tiny things.

Some visual examples and inspo below. I’m also gonna post drafts of the song here, but eventually the first link will be the recording.

Verse:

E/F#m E

I’d paint the sky pink for you

A G#m#5

Bleed purple into dusty blue

Dmaj7

Just to see your eyes smile

Create a craggly mountaintop

So one day you could be in awe

On a trip to see the view

Plant a flower in the sidewalk crack

So in a week when you walk the path

It is blooming just for you

Chorus:

F#m7

My love,

E

I hear you

F#m7

My love,

E

I am here

Dmaj7

Holding your hand

Bm

It’s hard,

F#m

I understand

D

Just rest your head on my chest

Dm6

And stay a while

Verse:

A G#m#5

I asked a squirrel to greet you hello

A G#m#5

I moved the breeze to kiss you goodnight

D

The shower and the dew

Dm

They glimmer just for you

D

And when you cried

Dm6

So did the sky and I

Bridge:

A C#m/G#

I long for your heart

A G#m#5

I long for your heart

F#m

And I will wait patiently, as

Little by little

D6 E

You understand who you are…

Chorus:

My love,

I hear you

My love,

I am here

Waiting to hold your hand (if you’ll just let me in)

Rest your head on my chest

And stay a while